Reflecting...

Just thinking about all the things that have happened this year to our family and our extended family...

EVERYTHING REALLY DOES END UP OK-- OR MAYBE TOLERABLE.

The amount of time spent on worrying about the potential outcomes is just not worth it to me anymore. Sure my mind automatically works to acknowledge the present and future consequences but I can honestly say I'm done keeping up with the latest drama. For years I've felt the need to stay in the loop because it kept me involved in others lives. But now I just want to be happy for them.

Why is being happy such a chore?
I used to really believe it was a chore because in some ways I felt that it didn't come naturally to me. I think that the zest of life was missed out on in my early and youthful years. Yeah its kinda sad. But oh, well. I've moved on and better things will and have come my way.

I'm not sure if this is development is due to maturity or awareness. But I can honestly say that the tools that have aided me are my nieces and nephews, and the children that I worked with at Summit. I've witnessed their simple happy states prefer that over many adult happy emotions.

Some traits that are of value are, ability to: be silly, laugh/smile lots, play, and experience simple pleasures. -Sonia